After reading Lee’s post about having a running identity crisis, it made me think about a conversation I had with the Cross Country/ Track coach from the school I work at. We were talking about how I ran the 5k and it felt like crap, and how my marathon felt sooo amazing! He said to me, “You are all over the place! You need to find a race motif.” My issue is this, I LOVE to race. So in all honesty I don’t really care what the distance is, as long as I get to compete, than I’m happy. The problem is, that it makes PRing and training difficult. But I knew he was right, I have to find a motif.
I started running in 7th grade when the idea of a 5k seemed impossible. I ran the 100, 200, and 400 and the 400 seemed like a marathon. By the end of high-school, I was running cross country, the 100, 200, 400, and 800. At the point I couldn’t imagine running and further… that was until I got to college where I no longer seen the 100 and 200, and the 400, 800, and 1500 became the norm, in addition to cross country. It was in college that I found the love of the distance run. I loved the long runs of cross country and the idea of a marathon seemed like something I wanted to do “someday”. I didn’t do a whole lot of racing after college, just running for the love of it. After I had Ella, I started getting back into the racing scene and now I’m hooked. It started with the 5k and just this year I started loving the half marathon. The half marathon became an obsession as I chased 1:30 (and still haven’t caught it). And somehow in the middle of chasing that dream, I managed to qualify for Boston. The idea of Boston has been on my mind for a long time but it seemed almost impossible and I think that my 20 something self just wasn’t ready for it. In January, one of my goals for the year was to qualify for Boston. I made a motivational wall and everything… I knew I’d get there eventually, but I figure it wouldn’t be until October. The day I qualified for for Boston, I realized that I AM a distance runner and there WILL be many more BQs in my future (at least I hope so).
While I have had some success in the 5k, it’s just too fast for me. I love that it’s short and sweet, But I just don’t have the time to put in the speed work in order to compete the way I would like to.. I just love the half marathon and marathon distance. I love that it allows you to make mistakes or have one or two bad miles. They are by no means easy distances, but for some reason over the last few months, I’ve grown to love them. My 12 year old self would probably not even recognize me now, but I would tell her to keep working hard because she will be running for a long time. I’ve been a runner for almost 20 years! That’s pretty amazing!
I’m not sure if I’m ready to say good bye to the 5k, but I am definitely ready to get a few more marathons under my belt and maybe even run Boston once or twice:)