Running has always been a part of my life, and I am blessed that after 21 years I can still do it. Over the last 21 years, I have had some extreme highs and some extreme lows and a lot of time hanging out somewhere in the middle, but one thing that I have learned is that if I just keep going, the times eventually come.
After taking a mini hiatus from running (not really by choice but by lack of time), I feared that I may be out of the game mentally and physically for Boston. The Marathon Game is very mental. You can be in the best shape but if you talk yourself out, you are out.
On Saturday afternoon, my and the kids sat down in front of the TV and watched the Marathon Olympic Trials. Holy Inspiration!
I text my coach through the whole race! And it was just the motivation I needed to kick my butt off the couch and to try to put in a run! Coach said 3 miles… and boy did I rock it.
Listen… I’m no all-star but after being out of commission I was willing to take 8 minute miles and somehow ran under 21 minutes with ease. It felt natural and amazing.
On Sunday, I woke up and stalked instagram and seen this posted by Shalene.
It instantly brought tears to my eyes and I immediately sent this text to my bestie… and her response blew me away. Sometimes we don’t even realize what an impact we have on other people… We have been running together for 20 years and I wouldn’t want anyone else by my side on marathon day…. Love her!
My coach told me to take it easy and do 5 miles…
As I started my run, I felt good and when I came through mile one I realized that maybe I felt a little too good because I ran 6:52 pace! All I could think was “shit!” I went out too fast and that I needed to ease back…. I came through mile 2 in 6:52. I thought “ok, this feels good, lets just try to stay under 7….for the next 3 miles I managed to make that happen. When I finished, I wanted to cry. Not because it hurt, but because it felt soooo damn good.
I was feeling a bit sad about running heading into the weekend. Worrying if I was ever going to feel like old Tantra… And then I got a really good pet talk from my friend…
“Think happy thoughts and believe in yourself. You never give yourself enough credit. The day you believe in yourself is the day you’re going to see yourself succeed beyond your wildest dreams. Promise.” Tell yourself “I. Am. Good. Enough”.
Through that 5 mile run I just kept repeating that in my head… I am ready to take on the rest of my Boston cycle… I. Am. Good. Enough!!!! I got this!